When Ella was five months I started in my position as a medical social worker. Prior to this position I was unemployed. I was in graduate school getting my Master’s in Social Work while I was pregnant with her and graduated in May 2018 when I was 8 months pregnant. I actually interned in the same department at the hospital I work at now while in my final year of grad school. A social work position opened up working with high utilizers of the emergency department shortly after I had Ella and I applied. I was conflicted about going back to work, but I knew financially I would have to go to work by the time she was year and I loved my internship and the hospital that it was at. Because of this I decided to go for the position. I’m grateful to have a job and that I was also able to stay home for her first five months.
Now that being said, being a working mom (outside of the home), it is hard mentally and emotionally. I miss Ella on the days I work and I don’t see her at all on those days, which makes me sad. But thankfully my employer and, this position specifically, are flexible and I can work longer hours and variable days in order to have more time with her.
I don’t like feeling like I am missing out on things with her, I feel like this time when they are little goes by so fast and missing only a day with her is a lot of time. I am thankful that FaceTime is a thing and when she is home with my fiance while I’m at work we FaceTime a couple times though out my shift.
As I’m sure many of you working moms can relate to, it’s tiring working outside the home and then coming home and cleaning, cooking, making time for friends and family, quality time with your partner, time with your children, and self-care. It’s definitely a balancing act and I am still working to find that balance.
A few months ago I started exercising regularly, barre and spin, and I find this hour of self-care 4-5 times a week has been great in helping me feel refreshed and centered.